She sat there thinking. Thinking about her friends, her family, school. But mostly she thought about him. Was he putting forth the effort he should have been? Did he want to be with her anymore? Did he still love her? Did he ever? The thoughts and questions she asked herself consumed her mind and ate at her innocent being. She found herself laying on the floor, crying, not having any idea what to do…
Worried about if you’ll leave me, how you’ll leave me, and when you’ll leave me.
Its because of my past why I have these trust issues, its because of myself that I can’t feel confident being with you because of my scars I keep hidden beneath my clothing. Its because of the secrets I keep tucked under my skin, that I can’t tell you who I am.
It doesn’t seem worth trying anymore. Does it?
But I will, untill you see who I really am.
My new tattoos, and also my first tattoos. Located on my forearms. (Done by Roy Ramirez at The Darkside Tattoo.)
They are the chemical symbols for the neurotransmitters dopamine and serotonin. Dopamine plays in a role in regulation of behavior, motivation, reward, attention, learning and mood. Serotonin plays a role in regulation of mood, appetite, sleep, memory and learning. Together they both directly influence happiness/sadness/depression/anxiety, which are all issues I have struggled with my entire life. These tattoos serves as reminders that my body literally can (and does) make my own happiness. It is also a reminder that under any circumstance I can also choose happiness over anxiety or depression, that I CAN concur it, and to remember how I have overcome so much in the past year.
My first tattoo, done by Joe Finch at Ink By Finch.
It says ‘Expecto Patronum’, a spell in Harry Potter which has deep meanings for me.
From the first time I read the book and the spell came out I already fell in love with the concept and ideology that J.K. Rowling came up with.
The spell actually means ‘I await for a protector” in Latin.
In the Harry Potter itself, ‘Expecto Patronum” is used to repel Dementors. Dementor is the guard of the Azkaban prison, a dark creature that absorbs your joy and happiness. So, in other words, the spell is used to repel all the bad aura that wants to steal happiness from me.
The unique thing about it is, if you want to cast the spell, you have to think of things that make you happy. The happier your memory is, the stronger your patronus will be.
That’s what I hope I will see every time I look at my tattoo, the pictures of places I’ve been to, my good friends, families, and all the good memories I’ve had with them.
I got them all in my arm as my Patronus.
So, what’s your strongest Patronus?
Its nothing big or fancy bit it means a lot to me, the two hearts are take from my Nana and Grandad’s grave stone
Done at Studio IX, Manchester
This is my Harry Potter tattoo. This picture was taken right after it was finished, when it heals my lightning bolt will be yellow. My best friend & I decided to get matching tattoos, we decided on this design because we knew it would be something we would never regret. Harry Potter has been a huge part of my childhood, just like my best friend. Now they will always be with me.